Anger

When I'm angry I lash out, period

And when I'm angry at you for something you did or said, I lash out at you. And you don't accept I talk to you that way

Sounds like a problem, right?

I am a very proud woman.. which you like.. and its not a direct conflict with being submissive to you until its directed at you... because of something you've done or said.. and don't tell me that the solution is easy: just not to direct it at you... because I'm not just your submissive right? There is a part there where its an equal relationship...

And somehow it all leads back to the same line of questioning I sometimes find myself doing.. questioning my submission to begin with..

I am your submissive.. should I just be a sub?
But I'm not just a sub right?  I am more than that... its not just a Dom-sub relationship.. there's more aspects in there than that..
But does "more" contradict with being a sub?
Is being submissive  just occasional now and being the "more" is more of the daily life?

Was I ever a sub?

I don't have answers