Playful You

Couple of weeks ago when we were home, you turned on your stomach, arms under your head, smiled and said you probably won't leave and that you're hungry and we should get something to eat and spend the night

For a certain reason I cannot forget your playfully smiling face when you did that and that image pops in my mind when I think of you

Vulnerable

This is probably my most favorite position ever.. ass high in the air.. face buried in the ground... and you take possession of me.. touching  me when you want.. hitting me when you want.. patting my back.. touching my pussy... and I'm  closing my eyes feeling the different sensations.. electricity going through my body.. my whole body on the edge.. craving more.. begging for more.. and I came with a hand that was not mine :)

P.S. believe it or not finding a picture was not that easy.. I wish I could find someone with more meat on her bones and still reflected what I wanted.. I didn't want any pictures with the girl having a smug smile on her face or a wild inviting look.. I was looking for something to reflect a serene feeling.. because that's how I felt.. serene, peaceful, submissive

Anger

When I'm angry I lash out, period

And when I'm angry at you for something you did or said, I lash out at you. And you don't accept I talk to you that way

Sounds like a problem, right?

I am a very proud woman.. which you like.. and its not a direct conflict with being submissive to you until its directed at you... because of something you've done or said.. and don't tell me that the solution is easy: just not to direct it at you... because I'm not just your submissive right? There is a part there where its an equal relationship...

And somehow it all leads back to the same line of questioning I sometimes find myself doing.. questioning my submission to begin with..

I am your submissive.. should I just be a sub?
But I'm not just a sub right?  I am more than that... its not just a Dom-sub relationship.. there's more aspects in there than that..
But does "more" contradict with being a sub?
Is being submissive  just occasional now and being the "more" is more of the daily life?

Was I ever a sub?

I don't have answers