Playful You

Couple of weeks ago when we were home, you turned on your stomach, arms under your head, smiled and said you probably won't leave and that you're hungry and we should get something to eat and spend the night

For a certain reason I cannot forget your playfully smiling face when you did that and that image pops in my mind when I think of you

Vulnerable

This is probably my most favorite position ever.. ass high in the air.. face buried in the ground... and you take possession of me.. touching  me when you want.. hitting me when you want.. patting my back.. touching my pussy... and I'm  closing my eyes feeling the different sensations.. electricity going through my body.. my whole body on the edge.. craving more.. begging for more.. and I came with a hand that was not mine :)

P.S. believe it or not finding a picture was not that easy.. I wish I could find someone with more meat on her bones and still reflected what I wanted.. I didn't want any pictures with the girl having a smug smile on her face or a wild inviting look.. I was looking for something to reflect a serene feeling.. because that's how I felt.. serene, peaceful, submissive

Anger

When I'm angry I lash out, period

And when I'm angry at you for something you did or said, I lash out at you. And you don't accept I talk to you that way

Sounds like a problem, right?

I am a very proud woman.. which you like.. and its not a direct conflict with being submissive to you until its directed at you... because of something you've done or said.. and don't tell me that the solution is easy: just not to direct it at you... because I'm not just your submissive right? There is a part there where its an equal relationship...

And somehow it all leads back to the same line of questioning I sometimes find myself doing.. questioning my submission to begin with..

I am your submissive.. should I just be a sub?
But I'm not just a sub right?  I am more than that... its not just a Dom-sub relationship.. there's more aspects in there than that..
But does "more" contradict with being a sub?
Is being submissive  just occasional now and being the "more" is more of the daily life?

Was I ever a sub?

I don't have answers

Threesome!

What better post after such a long time than a juicy post about threesomes...

Just to be clear, 2 girls and 1 boy.. goes without saying...

Now how would it go?

Like this maybe... with everybody getting piece of the action? Seams so staged though... don't seam real at all.. just paused for the picture

This one is more plausible, but still it doesn't tick for me

Now this is more like it.. Yep definitely does it for me.. me the girl in the middle.. I've been told before that the trick about a threesome is not to be the third person but get right in the action.. so middle girl definitely works

Then again, being more realistic.. I would probably be the girl in the bra...

Its all about the mindset

Comparing the last two sessions together, the further one I was so into taking in a challenge. Not being a wimp. Going for it and taking whatever is delivered. "I'm strong, I can take this".. And I did

The more recent one was completely different.. same position.. shorter session.. but I was not in the correct mindset.. In my head I was screaming "no no no no no" from the start... and once it started I was bawling like a child...

You can argue it wasn't the same severity.. I still think it wasn't the same mindset..

A threesome? I think its the same concept for me. Its all about the mindset.

I had to correct so many typing errors. I'm so drunk

I'm no wimp!

We were watching some canning videos.. those foreign language ones where they keep canning the girls until they're all puffed up with blue and purple lines. And in a moment of bravado I announced "let's try it"

To be honest I knew it would never get to the point where it was in those videos or even close to it. But it was more about taking it harder than before. And I did. And I kept the objections and the whining to a minimum. Took a lot of control and put me in a very different mindset. Definitely will go for it again. And what made me very proud of myself is that I took the canning in my least favorite position, Legs up. Hey wait a minute... those girls in the videos were bent down... how come I was legs up? *Pout* *Pout* *Pout*.  Should've taken a clue from the "see, they're not objecting to where they're being hit"